I drink too much and I am sincerely unhappy. I have had thoughts of suicide often in the past 18 days.

There are no days when I feel happiness.

There are only days when I can successfully feign happiness to others.

My mind is absolutely fucking perfect.

It is my mentality that is garbage.

The only way that I can move forward is to acknowledge my own flaws.

I cannot imagine that this will be an easy, or pleasant, process.

I can only imagine that it is neccessary.

I hope this message finds you well, and I hope that you are in the best of spirits. Someday I will find you, and we can walk hand-in-hand into the autumnal sunset.

Until then I am on my own, and I will do my best to do well without you.

I will always love and miss you.

Regards,

-Theo

I drink too much and I am sincerely unhappy. I have had thoughts of suicide often in the past 18 days. There are no days when I feel happiness. There are only days when I can successfully feign happiness to others. My mind is absolutely fucking perfect. It is my mentality that is garbage. The only way that I can move forward is to acknowledge my own flaws. I cannot imagine that this will be an easy, or pleasant, process. I can only imagine that it is neccessary. I hope this message finds you well, and I hope that you are in the best of spirits. Someday I will find you, and we can walk hand-in-hand into the autumnal sunset. Until then I am on my own, and I will do my best to do well without you. I will always love and miss you. Regards, -Theo

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^ this

Get some good green.

it has helped me tremendously.

That's because it's a spiritual plant.
Cannabis elevates us in a multitude of ways. Certain aspects of the high can be abused, sure. Anything that rewards us with dopamine can be abused, though, so that's quite the tired argument.

See, the endocannabinoid system is important to understand because it's quite clear to anyone willing to notice that the plant was likely literally made for us.
The plant does so much for us. It has incredible uses beyond just making you feel good, too. For instance, all types of necessary amino acids exist in the plant. It should be consumed. On top of that, it's great for making paper and endless amounts of other types of things in the area like clothing, rope and so much more.

The plant fucking makes compounds that mesh nearly perfectly with our nervous system. People that are fear mongering in this thread especially are doing themselves a disservice by berating people that are willing to make discoveries for themselves, they're comprimisng communal progression by deluding themselves to the point where they actually believe the propoganda...

Did you guys know the reason that police, governments and cartels exist is to coordinate the proper movement and concealment of collusion to control the markets?

This drug fucking reverses various aspects of mind control. It disrupts memory association, among other things, causing methods like NLP to go stale.

Now, you all MUST learn the importance of this. It's truly difficult to explain all that needs to be said here. You all need to pay attention.