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I drink too much and I am sincerely unhappy. I have had thoughts of suicide often in the past 18 days.

There are no days when I feel happiness.

There are only days when I can successfully feign happiness to others.

My mind is absolutely fucking perfect.

It is my mentality that is garbage.

The only way that I can move forward is to acknowledge my own flaws.

I cannot imagine that this will be an easy, or pleasant, process.

I can only imagine that it is neccessary.

I hope this message finds you well, and I hope that you are in the best of spirits. Someday I will find you, and we can walk hand-in-hand into the autumnal sunset.

Until then I am on my own, and I will do my best to do well without you.

I will always love and miss you.

Regards,

-Theo

I drink too much and I am sincerely unhappy. I have had thoughts of suicide often in the past 18 days. There are no days when I feel happiness. There are only days when I can successfully feign happiness to others. My mind is absolutely fucking perfect. It is my mentality that is garbage. The only way that I can move forward is to acknowledge my own flaws. I cannot imagine that this will be an easy, or pleasant, process. I can only imagine that it is neccessary. I hope this message finds you well, and I hope that you are in the best of spirits. Someday I will find you, and we can walk hand-in-hand into the autumnal sunset. Until then I am on my own, and I will do my best to do well without you. I will always love and miss you. Regards, -Theo

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It's because I have experience with cannabis and I know it doesn't help you get your shit in order, let alone find a purpose that makes life worth living.

Best it can do is distract and numb you if you're in a bad place. It's fine in moderation if you have your shit together. Same as drinking. But I think that some clean living and deep thinking is what would help Theo the most right now, knowing him and his situation.

It's fine in moderation if you have your shit together.

I think every hallucinagen has it's basic level of spiritual preparedness you need before it's safe to try.

LSD has been beneficial to me the few times I've done it(~3 times ever). But yeah, you need to prepare yourself. I would never use it regularly. Too much of a burden physically and mentally.