I drink too much and I am sincerely unhappy. I have had thoughts of suicide often in the past 18 days.

There are no days when I feel happiness.

There are only days when I can successfully feign happiness to others.

My mind is absolutely fucking perfect.

It is my mentality that is garbage.

The only way that I can move forward is to acknowledge my own flaws.

I cannot imagine that this will be an easy, or pleasant, process.

I can only imagine that it is neccessary.

I hope this message finds you well, and I hope that you are in the best of spirits. Someday I will find you, and we can walk hand-in-hand into the autumnal sunset.

Until then I am on my own, and I will do my best to do well without you.

I will always love and miss you.

Regards,

-Theo

I drink too much and I am sincerely unhappy. I have had thoughts of suicide often in the past 18 days. There are no days when I feel happiness. There are only days when I can successfully feign happiness to others. My mind is absolutely fucking perfect. It is my mentality that is garbage. The only way that I can move forward is to acknowledge my own flaws. I cannot imagine that this will be an easy, or pleasant, process. I can only imagine that it is neccessary. I hope this message finds you well, and I hope that you are in the best of spirits. Someday I will find you, and we can walk hand-in-hand into the autumnal sunset. Until then I am on my own, and I will do my best to do well without you. I will always love and miss you. Regards, -Theo

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I think that some clean living and deep thinking is what would help Theo the most right now, knowing him and his situation.

I don't even know how to respond to such a vapid argument...

You know, just because you're lazy and lack motivation and insight doesn't mean other people treat themselves the same way.
In other words, it's not the cannabis that makes you act like that, it's you.

You know, just because you're lazy and lack motivation and insight doesn't mean other people treat themselves the same way. In other words, it's not the cannabis that makes you act like that, it's you.

Do I sense projection here? No response needed. I know Theo. He should get out of Philly and go camping lol

It's not projection... I know just how lazy I'm not.

Also, it just so happens that I suggested the same to TK.