The spirit of freedom burns within me. I will never give in to despair. The darker things get, the more determined I become. Feel yourself turn to steel in the face of adversity. Picture yourself as something like a terminator. They can hit you with everything they've got and you just keep lurching forward.
Visualization is a powerful tool. But more realistically, you should all be working out. Do whatever you can. If you don't have equipment, look at bodyweight routines, pick one and stick to it. No matter how shitty I feel on any given day, if I can force myself to work out, I feel much better afterward. I still work full time by some miracle, and I still work out when I get home. Sometimes all I have the energy for is to work, come home, eat, work out, and then basically pass out. Even on those days, once I've got my workout in, I can relax somewhat.
Also, you need to do something to unwind. Play a video game. Go for a hike. Or even a long drive and listen to some music. Have a beer or ten (not every day, ideally). Read a book. Whatever helps you relax, find the time to do that. Get away from Poal, politics, and conspiracies occasionally. Sometimes I take a few days away from this stuff and it helps.
No matter what, keep going. Don't lose hope. And take care of yourself. Every person here is worth a thousand NPCs. We need all of you. I need all of you.
Thanks broheem. I called about rejoining planet fitness yesterday. Asked if you had to wear a mask. Yes. Said that's gay.
Been drinking too much. Not today though, have to recover. Maybe I should go back to AA meetings, though I probably won't quit, and feel like a hypocrite, but I like em.
I've only purchased one video game in close to 15 years - dishonored.
Playing lots of Bridge.
Was on a poetry writing binge for months, filled up a journal with a new twin peaks one ready to go, but I feel as my last poem was titled, kenosis.
But as the last 3 years have shown me I get into a writing binge fall to winter and peter out in the new year.
I've been a gym rat off and on since high school. I saw the writing on the wall last summer and saved up and bought a squat rack, bench, bar, and plates. I don't know if I could deal with the gym stuff nowadays. I'd rather do calisthenics at home.
I drink too much too. If I wasn't working right now I'd be in bad shape, lol. I do dry weeks/months every once in a while to keep it under control though. If I can do a month booze free I feel a lot less guilty about drinking too much when I do.
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