because it was ALL in context in natural progression, done over time. I was counting (bad idea) on it being THERE for the FUTURE (DISTANT). At LEAST I SAID my PEACE and someone can see it, rather than me being a silent nobody corpse on the beach that has very little to offer about "us" for those who come later and (miracle) are interested and understand our tech and language, etc. It was organically being built. by natural processes (conversations) over TIME. MY obsessiveness.. Doing it like a JOB or conscious effort specifically for that purpose, defeats the purpose. done naturally, it shows WHO I am, done mechanically it shows, perhaps, who I WANT you BELIEVE I am. It's NOT done in that way for that purpose. It was a SIDE EFFECT of being ME. Make any sense? Like money (to me) is NOT an OBJECTIVE so much as it's a BYPRODUCT of MY WORK (the important thing).