I've been sober since 2015. I don't regret it but I sometimes miss the buzz of the first drinks. It wasn't for me. I was never as functioning as I thought I was. In the end it was just exacerbating everything that wasn't working in my life. At the time I realized it was also the gateway drug to cocaine which was really destroying me. I found out that all my mental locks I had in preparation to stop using cocaine were gone the moment I felt the buzz of alcohol. The two had become associated in my brain. The day I realized I had to stop drinking to be able to stop cocaine was the day I stopped drinking. I've tried almost every psychoactive drugs you can find and only alcohol and cocaine have an addictive grip on me. Both were drugs I thought I was a functioning user of.