it won't help dealing with an addict in the least, assuming that's your end game here. Nope just find the subject fascinating and I've grown up IN it so its just me trying to stretch myself mentally and spiritually. Addicts lie and cheat, and will deceive you in ways you will not see coming. Yup. Saw it first hand and was recipient of quite a bit of bullshit so I hear ya. What can I say beyond that I really enjoy the buzz that alcohol brings me. I'm an introvert but I'm not one of those that drinking brings out of their shell, so that's not a reason that I drink. In fact I prefer to drink alone, period. I don't enjoy the dull head and all the rest the next day, but not enough to keep me from drinking. I wish that I had a lesson here for you to learn there's no lesson; it's just humanity. Thank you for an honest answer. That's really all I wanted . Not alot of studies say etc. It just helps me to see things from a better angle. Thanks