I spend so much time informing myself about distasteful situations that I am powerless to change. In my own self-centered and self-serving mind, I have developed a picture of the way I think the world out to be. And then, for some God-foresaken reason, reality always has this way of deviating from the the way I want it to be. And that upsets me, it truly does. Why can't reality just understand what I want? Doesn't it see that my way is the ideal way, the best way?