This is very sad to read because she dosen't need to continue feeling like this. This poor women needs Jesus and therapy. She probally has depression and it sounds like anxiety and if she deals with these things she probally would feel differently. It could be post partum that she thinks is just how things are because she didn't want kids at 18, feelings that often change as someone grows up. Objectively she knows her son is great and she should have a great life her feelings just tell her she hates it. She will continue to hate it if she is constantly looking at the downsides and negitives and pushing the good things aside. I would also bet if she really thought about it she is happier or at least more content than she acts like she is or like she felt when writing this. And if this is how she really feels then why stay home with the kid if she has a good paying job??