We didn't date that long, maybe 6 months or so. My brain was fresh into the grieving process so I had no clue what to expect honestly. As unfair as it is, I do base a lot of my dating understandings off this woman's behavior, which I'm sure most other women don't appreciate, but it is what it is. It's made me realize over time most women really are cemented cunts, and I would rather be alone than try to throw myself out there and get damaged all over again
I remember I had a ton of my wife's stuff at my house still. My girlfriend at the time was very jealous and irrate over this so she threw it all away one day, just put it in a car and dumped it in a bunch of different dumpsters accross the city. Most of it is not replaceable either, were talking picture books, clothes, old documents, etc. Part of me still doesn't understand how one can develop such an intense hatred for a person they never met, but this person did.
By this time my brain was already completely broken, so what should have been a quick kick was much more drawn out than it should. I also remember she would openly insult my wife all the time, make pot shot jokes at her, or find ways to remind me my wife is dead, than she would shame me for getting teary eyed over it. It came off as some FBI torture technique because she knew what she was doing, and she knew the result, so why the fuck was she surprised?
I did eventually break up with her, but what made it interesting, is she was very surprised by this. I don't honestly know why the fuck she was THAT surprised, I mean her behavior was bound to eventually make me snap. Not even the most hardcore rambo in today's world could put up with that shit for more than a few months at best.
We didn't date that long, maybe 6 months or so. My brain was fresh into the grieving process so I had no clue what to expect honestly. As unfair as it is, I do base a lot of my dating understandings off this woman's behavior, which I'm sure most other women don't appreciate, but it is what it is. It's made me realize over time most women really are cemented cunts, and I would rather be alone than try to throw myself out there and get damaged all over again
I remember I had a ton of my wife's stuff at my house still. My girlfriend at the time was very jealous and irrate over this so she threw it all away one day, just put it in a car and dumped it in a bunch of different dumpsters accross the city. Most of it is not replaceable either, were talking picture books, clothes, old documents, etc. Part of me still doesn't understand how one can develop such an intense hatred for a person they never met, but this person did.
By this time my brain was already completely broken, so what should have been a quick kick was much more drawn out than it should. I also remember she would openly insult my wife all the time, make pot shot jokes at her, or find ways to remind me my wife is dead, than she would shame me for getting teary eyed over it. It came off as some FBI torture technique because she knew what she was doing, and she knew the result, so why the fuck was she surprised?
I did eventually break up with her, but what made it interesting, is she was very surprised by this. I don't honestly know why the fuck she was THAT surprised, I mean her behavior was bound to eventually make me snap. Not even the most hardcore rambo in today's world could put up with that shit for more than a few months at best.
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