If she doesn't die she's peaking right now and will grow more and more miserable by the day as she grows older, life gets harder and this shit is so long in her memory she'll wonder if it even happened like this or she made it up altogether. The way girls like this live in their early twenties really fucks them up when they hit their thirties and absolutely destroys them by their forties. Everyone but her knows why she can no longer live like this and it kills her. You don't want to live like everyone else after spending years living like a pampered princess. It's torture.