You explained that really well. My whole life is the part about improving, literally my entire focus, once sentience was attained. I do understand, but I say "I dont get it" because it is simply so foreign to me. I would never choose to not work, when I'm sick, I lament the loss of work, not for my employer or the farm, I lament for myself, I want to "do life", not hide from it or be excused. I know you wont believe this, but I almost starved once, ended up eating rice from a hot pot in a dank motel. Still didnt steal anything. Best rice I ever had. I do hear ya tho, people are.... different.