Been there, smoked till I was around 40 daily and I just didn't give a fuck where I was living or what I owned, just wanted my beer and weed and enough food and cigarettes to get me by every week. Hell I was often the lowest paid worker even though I did a lot of work but the boss just assumed I wasn't good enough for the more technical jobs till he caught me self training and doing the more complex jobs without a problem, then suddenly I was tossed a 1.50 raise.
I love the smell even. I keep a bottle capped that had weed in it and when I'm feeling down a take a sniff and if I concentrate I can trick my brain into feeling like I just smoked. I know it's a placebo effectively but is does the trick to take the edge off bad days sometimes. Hell last night a skunk sprayed a ways off and I thought I smelled good skunk weed and I got a smile till I went downstairs and got a good wiff of the smell then not so smiling.
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