Following consistently, that's the hard part, at least for me. And I suspect that not seeking to know god, not refreshing my mind constantly with his message, is why I struggle. Something I wrote to describe myself: **KNOWING** My savior's with me though I struggle With my heart in him I abide Though in sin I toil through my trouble He never does leave from my side And I know before my final hour That within him secure I will be That my faith like a blossoming flower Will bloom forth for my god to see. Yet in this life filled with much bleakness I pray to my god above Lord judge me not for my weakness But father for only my love For one day when you open that book Despite all of the errors I've made I know on one of the pages you'll look To see I was worthy of the price that you paid.