Oh, you have it a wee bit wrong. Just slightly...
I don't much care about "changing the world." Fuck that. I'm not changing anybody. If I change something, I'm responsible for it. Y'all are on your own. Don't look to me for answers. Nope...
But, I will leave a mark. I don't care if I have to blow off a side of a mountain. I'll leave a mark.
I've chosen to leave a smaller mark than blowing off the side of a mountain. I have friends willing to help, but they tell me that it's a stupid idea. Not that they're not willing to help, but that I'll probably get in a lot of trouble - even if I own the mountain. Horrible, really. It's mine. I should be able to blow it up if I want to.
However, they're not gonna let me and just doing it anyhow is a whole lot worse.
I need to eat dinner soon - but I'll be back, if you're around.
Well I left my mark already my kids are my mark. If its not too personal I ended the cycle of horrible fathers and broken families that has followed my family for 2 generations. Thats my mark. If you want to blow the side off a mountain I think its a great idea I'll help imagine what you might find. Gold, silver, treasure you have no idea what could be in there before you look! Enjoy dinner I'll be here.
Oh, I've left lots of marks. It's not even about being remembered so much as it is about history. It's not totally about my name, it's about these events need to be remembered. Future historians are gonna need them. (Well, probably not mine - but just in case.)
I've got a Ph.D in the STEM field. In order to get our doctorate, we must do new research that "forwards the art" and is sound. It's also supposed to be useful. So, I've got published research. I've got time as a freelance journalist. I've got lots of journals, both research and personal, going back decades.
I have kids but my kids too awesome to have come from me. LOL Somehow, despite my best efforts, they're health and productive adults - they're even happy. I'm not sure what I did wrong, but they have done well.
Your eldest is 7, right?
And nothing is too personal with me. I'm pretty much exactly what you see. Judge away. I'm happy with who I am. Your history does explain your views a bit. A lovely family is awesome.
If I can give some unsolicited advice:
Don't let that family slip away. I've seen it before. It takes work, love, and dedication. But, it's lovely when they grow up healthy, happy, productive, and loving you in return. I still beam when my daughter hugs and kisses me, then bitches about my hair and beard. ;-)
I don't see them enough, which kind of sucks. But, that's the way life goes and they have their lives to lead.
Buddha your advice is always welcome I almost view you like a former father figure I lost(not my father I lost him long long ago believe it or not he is still alive just a sociopath) He was a older guy that gave me advice and I fixed his computers I never charged him but he always insisted on paying me. I took care of his wifes technology needs even though I had to drive eight hours to get to her when she moved until she passed. That guy made me who I am and you seem to be almost as wise as he was, and apparently at least as generous as you have invited me and my family into your home with out even meeting me, or my rowdy children for that matter.
That all being said my family my daughters and soon hopefully son (fingers crossed knock on wood it has to be a boy this time damnit) are more important to me than anything else, I have NO idea what life has in store for us at this point. Job uncertainty found this site all that life is up in the air like crazy we may not even stay in michigan. However no matter what I will take care of those girls(my wife included) they are everything too me. I was just thinking the other night I don't read enough books to my girls so I started reading them 2 books every day, its been about 3 days but I plan to keep doing it. So I get it. Also my oldest is 5 she will be 6 on the 15th and I could not be more excited. 6 years old she will probably be really reading this year how awesome is that!
I never got the chance to get a degree although I wanted one I thought the price tag made it a scam not one I could have afforded anyway. I was on my own at 16 and college was out of the question I had to work. I got my certs and started a company(it took a while as it turns out no one wants to trust a 17 year old with their business network) I managed to put my wife through a few years of college but she didn't finish. I do love learning and have always strived to stay educated as much as possible. I think I am rambling at this point so I'll leave it off here and if you want to know more feel free to ask.
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