Sounds to me like you need to think more about what your user name actually means.
Sounds to me like you need to think more about what your user name actually means.
butch up fucker
butch up fucker
Ok, let me jump in here and see if I cant give you a better answer than what you've been getting. Lets start here
I'm not the healthiest person in the world, I have chronic issues
I know how this feels from both sides. We buried my nephew in May. he lived to be 36. He developed a malignant brain tumor at 11. He had his head opened up 22 times, lived a life of blindness, chronic pain, restrictive abilities etc. At his wake the people that turned out (alot of them btw) always remembered how HE made THEM laugh despite his condition so you are more than GOOD on how you are handling yours.
As for myself I contracted Spinal Meningitis at 13 months old. In the very early 60's they had little idea of what to do with that. As a result I, like you. have been let in for a lifetime of chronic issues. I cant GET sick because it always becomes a life threatening infection, like the one I'm currently dealing with. I learned one thing from all this...this body is a Tank. Its not pretty to look at but it's taken more shit tossed AT it than most people could handle and it keeps going. Same for you. Be proud of your tenacity not ashamed. Some of us get shit bodies to take the ride of life in and some don't. My brother, 8 yrs my senior doesn't even get headaches, (fucker) lol. But NO life, especially one spent in the service of others is EVER a waste. Please believe THAT if nothing else.
My mom discarded me and my siblings a a very young age, and made us the sole scapegoat to all her problems,
My own mother was mentally ill, addicted to everything but alcohol. (why she left THAT on the table only God knows) but growing up, I got beaten with all manner of shit, whatever was handy, Verbally humiliated in front of family, friends etc., Threatened with being drown in the bathtub..you name it. I'm ok with it all. It made me who I am today. I am and have always been self sufficient as is my brother. I NEED no help and ask for none. I'm capable of building or fixing most anything and I do ok financially. I have also come to see that, given the choice between the kind of parenting I got vs the type of parenting I see these last 30 yrs, I will take my mother each and every time because by being such a fuck I HAD to become a MAN not a pussy. I'm sure the same can be said in your own case so again, try to look at it from the benefit side vs the detriment side because there are always two sides to everything.
i delay me proposing to her by around a month.
Ok THIS one I actually laughed at. My friend, you will NEVER make a woman truly happy because THEY don't know what THEY want most of the time so you gotta just fish or cut bait on this one. Do the best you can for her and the rest you leave up to God. The only way you can "fail" is if you don't TRY.
My boss had told me he was disappointed in a communication breakdown last month that caused some issues.
This last one I wouldn't even waste YOUR valuable time on. Bosses are ALWAYS pissed off, stressed out and disappointed in someone. It's just a job. It's a means to an end nothing more. In 5 yrs will it have mattered what happened at your job this week? NO so don't let it twist you now.
Life is about doing good for others nothing more. When they close the lid they wont be throwing in and trophies, bank books ( much my brothers disappointment), fancy cars or houses. What goes home with you is what you left behind in good works. Being helpful and kind to people, to animals etc. THATS all that matters in the end. I know some here will disagree with me and thats ok. But from where I stand, Other than a lack of confidence, you seem to have shit pretty well sussed out. Hang in there.
Ok, let me jump in here and see if I cant give you a better answer than what you've been getting. Lets start here
I'm not the healthiest person in the world, I have chronic issues
I know how this feels from both sides. We buried my nephew in May. he lived to be 36. He developed a malignant brain tumor at 11. He had his head opened up 22 times, lived a life of blindness, chronic pain, restrictive abilities etc. At his wake the people that turned out (alot of them btw) always remembered how HE made THEM laugh despite his condition so you are more than GOOD on how you are handling yours.
As for myself I contracted Spinal Meningitis at 13 months old. In the very early 60's they had little idea of what to do with that. As a result I, like you. have been let in for a lifetime of chronic issues. I cant GET sick because it always becomes a life threatening infection, like the one I'm currently dealing with. I learned one thing from all this...this body is a Tank. Its not pretty to look at but it's taken more shit tossed AT it than most people could handle and it keeps going. Same for you. Be proud of your tenacity not ashamed. Some of us get shit bodies to take the ride of life in and some don't. My brother, 8 yrs my senior doesn't even get headaches, (fucker) lol. But NO life, especially one spent in the service of others is EVER a waste. Please believe THAT if nothing else.
My mom discarded me and my siblings a a very young age, and made us the sole scapegoat to all her problems,
My own mother was mentally ill, addicted to everything but alcohol. (why she left THAT on the table only God knows) but growing up, I got beaten with all manner of shit, whatever was handy, Verbally humiliated in front of family, friends etc., Threatened with being drown in the bathtub..you name it. I'm ok with it all. It made me who I am today. I am and have always been self sufficient as is my brother. I NEED no help and ask for none. I'm capable of building or fixing most anything and I do ok financially. I have also come to see that, given the choice between the kind of parenting I got vs the type of parenting I see these last 30 yrs, I will take my mother each and every time because by being such a fuck I HAD to become a MAN not a pussy. I'm sure the same can be said in your own case so again, try to look at it from the benefit side vs the detriment side because there are always two sides to everything.
i delay me proposing to her by around a month.
Ok THIS one I actually laughed at. My friend, you will NEVER make a woman truly happy because THEY don't know what THEY want most of the time so you gotta just fish or cut bait on this one. Do the best you can for her and the rest you leave up to God. The only way you can "fail" is if you don't TRY.
My boss had told me he was disappointed in a communication breakdown last month that caused some issues.
This last one I wouldn't even waste YOUR valuable time on. Bosses are ALWAYS pissed off, stressed out and disappointed in someone. It's just a job. It's a means to an end nothing more. In 5 yrs will it have mattered what happened at your job this week? NO so don't let it twist you now.
Life is about doing good for others nothing more. When they close the lid they wont be throwing in and trophies, bank books ( much my brothers disappointment), fancy cars or houses. What goes home with you is what you left behind in good works. Being helpful and kind to people, to animals etc. THATS all that matters in the end. I know some here will disagree with me and thats ok. But from where I stand, Other than a lack of confidence, you seem to have shit pretty well sussed out. Hang in there.
Men don't whine. They don't cry, not in public at any rate. Be a man. It's what you were born to be so embrace it. Stop sniveling and whining and just do what needs to be done when it needs to be done. Keep your doubts to yourself. Don't take psychotropic drugs and don't start visiting a psychologist, just be a man. If your girlfriend doesn't like it, let her find someone else. If your boss doesn't like it he can fire you. Stop rolling around on the ground like some kind of salted worm.
Men don't whine. They don't cry, not in public at any rate. Be a man. It's what you were born to be so embrace it. Stop sniveling and whining and just do what needs to be done when it needs to be done. Keep your doubts to yourself. Don't take psychotropic drugs and don't start visiting a psychologist, just be a man. If your girlfriend doesn't like it, let her find someone else. If your boss doesn't like it he can fire you. Stop rolling around on the ground like some kind of salted worm.
We could live for thousands of years and would still carry around childhood trauma. We don't get to pick our parents, don't let her issues be yours. These feelings of inferiority are your demons, recognize them when they make their appearance in your head. The good news: You can practice with appropriate response mechanisms that will improve you. The bad news: They will never go away, they will constantly return, remind you, badger you, and continue to do so even after you have turned it into a positive.
We could live for thousands of years and would still carry around childhood trauma. We don't get to pick our parents, don't let her issues be yours. These feelings of inferiority are your demons, recognize them when they make their appearance in your head.
The good news: You can practice with appropriate response mechanisms that will improve you.
The bad news: They will never go away, they will constantly return, remind you, badger you, and continue to do so even after you have turned it into a positive.
You need to turn you depression into anger and hate, and be less of a faggot who cares about how other people feel or thing. It's their own fucking problem.
You need to turn you depression into anger and hate, and be less of a faggot who cares about how other people feel or thing. It's their own fucking problem.
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