Thank you for coming back and leading prayer night
Thanks for Praying tonight.
I got butt-hurt because I wanted other people (mostly ) to act exactly according to my own moral authority, despite the fact that I rarely live up to the morals I so often espouse.
We are all human, and think that the world should be one way, or another.
My foolishness lies in me getting pissed off when the world does not meet my expectations.
Getting angry at the people around me, because they are aren't acting like I think they should be acting, that is the height of insanity and Hubris.
But, I think that is kind of the point.
None of us will become perfect through any amount of Prayer.
But we can all seek spiritual progress, instead of perfection, and I think that is a worthwhile goal.
I've felt like that a lot too. I try to remember to not hold people to my unspoken expectations. My issue was I wanted to be involved in stuff, and decisions, solve the problem. Now I try to appreciate others' efforts and that I don't have to be involved in their decisions. Maybe they just wanted me to listen while they sort themself out. That frees up time for working on my inner spiritual stuff now too, going slowly since it's not a competition.
You brought a prayer night to this site and that was a great idea to do for those who need prayers, those willing to pray for and with others, and for those starting on the spiritual path who get reminders to take time in the week for prayer.
My issue was I wanted to be involved in stuff, and decisions, solve the problem.
It is kind of trite, but my spiritual advisor told me that no matter how much you plan and wish and attempt to force the future you want, it just won't end up that way, no matter what.
It doesn't mean that we are failing or going in the wrong direction when the future doesn't meet our vision, it is just a reminder that we aren't God, and we should do our best, enjoying this ride we can't ever control.
Welcome back, brother.
You liked my poem, earlier today?
Theo, thanks for coming back and doing this, I have been thinking about you and hoping that you find happiness.
Remember, YOU are made in the image of God. That doesn't mean our bodies, it means the souls that are in the drivers seat of these temporary bodies. Through that soul, you are directly connected to God. Feel the love that connects you; live in that love. Anything that makes you feel fear(or any degree of it like anger) is altering your frequency and misaligning it to the love that is God. Don't allow things you see to make you disconnect from God. That is what is meant by turning the other cheek.
Holding onto anger is a poison that only affects you, which is why forgiveness is divine. More importantly than forgiving others, is to forgive yourself. Since forgiveness is divine, be divine to yourself, which is in alignment with the saying "above all, to thine own self be true".
I hope you are able to refind that connection to God that children are born with, and can go back to just feeling happy for no Earthly reason other than you are connected to God and feel his love.
I pray that you find this in yourself again and regain the happiness that is yours.