I too had crushes that lasted for years. But, one day, I stopped thinking of them. Something in me changed. It may be like that for you too eventually.
I've had another one that got away.. a car accident didn't help, in a mass miscommunication. Took a while to get her off my mind... Before that it was always one of us in a relationship, trying to chase each other... Better off in the long run. Now I'm comfortably numb alone, and given current social conditions, cynical towards the dating scene, especially cause I hate online dating, being tortured by a long distance relationship went wrong as a young teenager, and that was in the Christian community, yet she knew a lot of my IRL friends. Blackmail basically. So maybe I've never been fully comfortable or trusting. A few good relationships, but I always want out. Surprised I get along great with women actually, even in a Friend sense, considering other things from younger...
I know what you mean. It always seemed like the timing was off in many of my relationships. I was foot loose and fancy free.
Now, i rather like my alone time. I guess I always did. Was always fiercely independent.Traveled the world and wouldn't let anyone hold me back.
As far as trusting others, I do understand what you mean though. I don't like drama. I like peace of mind.
I've always been half extrovert/introvert. Guess I go to the extremes of things, but get along with a variety of folks
Unfortunately. These girls were abused themselves, and so they abused me. But you don't know what's going on at 7 years old. They may have been pretty, but it still fucks any person up. Thankfully, I haven't been turned into one of them
That's good that they didn't mess you up. I always seemed to attract the narcissistic types when younger. Luckily, they didn't fuck me up either though they did mess with my head occasionally.
Ditto on the other side of the mirror
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