People give me money and that's cool because holy shit is life expensive. Every guy I know (I only meet people at work) has tried to get in my pants. Gross. The stuff I learned on voat about single moms being good for nothing except a quick lay is a real attitude that some men have. I don't want sex, I want a hug. It's very difficult to not get those daily hugs from a grown man anymore. My children didn't just lose their father, they also lost their mother. I am a completely different person and I'm still changing. I have to be tough and that is not feminine. But I'm still alive and haven't quit doing what I have to do even though I want to burn everything down and fuck off to the woods and cry forever. Thanks to everyone who replied, even the ones who weren't nice. I do have one female friend that helps me a lot. And I will take your advice and call myself a widow instead of a single mother even though the word makes me sad.