I'm not really a bird.
DELET THIS
I'm actually a griffin. I just LARP.
post pics or gtfo
Sure, and this isn't really my name. gtfo
I grew up in a really abusive home, spent my life living day to day just trying to bide my time till I could get out. Though I now live a normal life, work hard, have a wife and kid on he way, I hide from the world that I have a shit ton of sociopathic tendencies. I don't feel emotions the way most people do. I love my wife and I am extremely loyal to/protective of her. But I don't feel excitement/worry/anger/joy in any normal way and have hidden this from everyone I've ever come into any kind of friendship with. I have emotions and feelings in fleeting moments, but nothing is long term. Everything goes back to emptiness and just living in thoughts in my own head
My parental units were defective as well. I trust one person....my spouse.
I have the exact same issue, and for the exact same reasons.
I noticed it as a young kid when I could care less about Christmas or the presents I got. Nothing excited me.
I think for me it was more ingrained. I grew up JW, and was beaten severely for expressing interest in "worldly" events.
Thanks for sharing.
This normal for people who survive long-term childhood trauma. It's called dissociation. It's the way your brain protected you and kept you alive and sane through what you had to endure.
If you want to talk to someone, your best bet for a non-lefty SJW therapist would be one involved with a Christian practice.
Best of luck to you and your family, and I'm glad you were able to make it through.
> I have emotions and feelings in fleeting moments, but nothing is long term. Everything goes back to emptiness and just living in thoughts in my own head
What's not to like?
I mean it could be the contrary, living in some sort of perpetual emotional rollercoaster, lifelong griefs and shits like that
No instead it reverts to "I don't remember" essentially, after a little while, it's not all bad. Granted, that's not the good life full of everything good you can think of, that they sold you and everybody else, on tvish...
Is there such a thing as that 99% mostly happy life picture they sell us? Maybe, I guess
Reality is that, most people won't find the love of their life in this life, most people won't be beverly hills rich and famous, and they'll get to fuck and to eat and to work with what's available, not what they want, and they'll "settle" on most things, as they say...
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And they'll get old, too, and that will hardly fit any of their expectations of a good life
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Never believe it's better "in others", it's just a different shit and it's still shit
Take elon musk, you want to be elon musk? I mean what's not to like, he's still rather young, wealthy beyond pretty much any standard, sounds like he enjoys life etc
But what do you know? You think you know, from what you can only see via photos and videos, but what is it like to be elon? Nobody knows how it feels inside
He's reportedly, big on psychotropic use
My experience with psychotropics, is that, it's not just about having fun, it's also about running away
I shit furry
Also, am attack helicopter.
(bear handed)
Doing more than shitting furry there.
So you wear bear mitts instead of hitting with your bare hands?
bear-handed armless combat
Fukk me, I'm scared
Furry you say?
"fury" was too boring. Or, I've been using tree-bark to up my fiber intake.
You were okay with the other easter eggs though?
I probably didn't catch all of em
I kind of actually want to die and hold my baby again. Only thing that keeps me from booging and getting it over with is my wife and other kids.
I can't imagine your loss or pain. Those are good reasons to stay alive your kids need you especially in this hell.
I'm a couple years past my expiration date.
I'm inching toward giving up.
You need to go fishing.
Things are just about to get really interesting. The dollar is on its way out as the reserve currency. The fed is between a rock and a hard place. The western empire is making erratic moves in attempts to cling onto its dominance as a global power. This Lenin quote is very true right now. "There are decades where nothing happens; and there are weeks where decades happen." Maybe the power balance will shift enough towards China during this destabilization phase that we have an opening. Giving up now is similar to quitting an interesting show right before a really momentous season finale. Don't know if this helps, but that's how I see it.
I successfully live alone with 3 bedrooms filled with garbage
Clean your house faggot.
I'd have to change the locks first or it all would be the same tomorrow
Oh shit... like garbage trash, or just worthless belongings?
Too me? 100%... To the people that left the stuff maybe 0% I'm not really sure or know why people do this
I had unintentionally gotten addicted to pain pills from an accident at first, but the had gotten them from a friend for a while. I one day decided i was going to stop taking them because i didnt need them anymore without really realizing what was about to happen to me. I found out the hard way about opiate withdrawals. That was the first time i felt what pure terror felt like. Really really eye opening. I had an other injury not long ago and i refused that shit and took aleve; which actually did a better job with the pain.
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