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I drink too much and I am sincerely unhappy. I have had thoughts of suicide often in the past 18 days.

There are no days when I feel happiness.

There are only days when I can successfully feign happiness to others.

My mind is absolutely fucking perfect.

It is my mentality that is garbage.

The only way that I can move forward is to acknowledge my own flaws.

I cannot imagine that this will be an easy, or pleasant, process.

I can only imagine that it is neccessary.

I hope this message finds you well, and I hope that you are in the best of spirits. Someday I will find you, and we can walk hand-in-hand into the autumnal sunset.

Until then I am on my own, and I will do my best to do well without you.

I will always love and miss you.

Regards,

-Theo

I drink too much and I am sincerely unhappy. I have had thoughts of suicide often in the past 18 days. There are no days when I feel happiness. There are only days when I can successfully feign happiness to others. My mind is absolutely fucking perfect. It is my mentality that is garbage. The only way that I can move forward is to acknowledge my own flaws. I cannot imagine that this will be an easy, or pleasant, process. I can only imagine that it is neccessary. I hope this message finds you well, and I hope that you are in the best of spirits. Someday I will find you, and we can walk hand-in-hand into the autumnal sunset. Until then I am on my own, and I will do my best to do well without you. I will always love and miss you. Regards, -Theo

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Don't you fucking listen to these assholes telling you to smoke more pot. Numbing your mind, body, and soul with external chemicals is NOT the way to go.

What is the endocannabinoid system? How does it mesh with the same compounds found in plants?

You fell for the "don't do drugs" D.A.R.E. shit, didn't you?...

An addendum.

Cannabis usage, specifically habitual, has a negative effect on a male's testosterone production along with other important mood regulating hormones and HGH. For a man that needs to be decisive and to work at getting things in order, habitual cannabis use will be a detriment.

Indeed!
There we go... some progress at last.

These aspects can be balanced out with the use of supplements like adaptogens. In addition, one can pursue all kinds of other habits that balance out the decrease in testosterone; namely, considerable exercise, a considerable diet that allows one to offset testosterone production, semen retention and I'm sure plenty more things I don't remember.

So, in other words, that's not enough of an argument. I respect your attempt at least. It's refreshing considering other people not only not taking this seriously for TK's sake.

It's because I have experience with cannabis and I know it doesn't help you get your shit in order, let alone find a purpose that makes life worth living.

Best it can do is distract and numb you if you're in a bad place. It's fine in moderation if you have your shit together. Same as drinking. But I think that some clean living and deep thinking is what would help Theo the most right now, knowing him and his situation.

It's fine in moderation if you have your shit together.

I think every hallucinagen has it's basic level of spiritual preparedness you need before it's safe to try.

I think that some clean living and deep thinking is what would help Theo the most right now, knowing him and his situation.

I don't even know how to respond to such a vapid argument...

You know, just because you're lazy and lack motivation and insight doesn't mean other people treat themselves the same way.
In other words, it's not the cannabis that makes you act like that, it's you.